tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post2901501407347798766..comments2023-04-26T04:59:50.900-07:00Comments on Pandaleidoscope: And So, Here It Is....PandaMomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03950252680639174490noreply@blogger.comBlogger19125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-30958398375234247812009-12-10T08:55:42.378-08:002009-12-10T08:55:42.378-08:00Jana,
Just saw and read your story. We too suffere...Jana,<br />Just saw and read your story. We too suffered a loss through CPS because of their malpractice. I was even reflecting on it last night and cried and that was 3 years ago!<br /><br />Please know that all of us who have gone through infertility and adoption- even if some of our adoptions seemed flawless, understand and know the pain, heartache, and grief of dreams unfullfilled. <br /><br />May you be blessed by the beauty around you this Christmas and not haunted by what could have been.<br /><br />Much love.Lauriehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07502259594425550745noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-83326505709878224862009-12-06T23:14:59.416-08:002009-12-06T23:14:59.416-08:00I could say so many things here. I won't even...I could say so many things here. I won't even go into what I think of the system that put you all through this. I will however tell you that God's plans are bigger than you or I will ever be able to grasp in our human minds. As you said, one day He will turn our peephole into a room with a view! Until then, we must trust in HIM! There are no words that can take away your pain, or fix your broken dreams. I know a little about that. You've heard bits of my story, but I've not really ever put into words the heartbreak of my broken dreams, of wondering what kind of life my child can live with Autism standing in the way. I was devastated for a very long time. Even though that diagnosis answered a lot of questions, it opened so many more and so much heartache up that I don't know if I could ever put it into words. God changed that. He broke my heart for her and filled it up with hope. I still don't know what will be. Everyday is a question, a challenge. We work so much harder to reach the small milestones than those around us it seems, but little by little we get there. Our church family has not only welcomed us with open arms, but brings us reassurance every step of the way. I've learned that my dreams aren't His plan. Sometimes He has to allow my dreams to be broken in order to show me where He wants me to go. God is good my friend, this I know. I love your little family, and you are always in my prayers.Denisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05880441351945896416noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-18743503321457589382009-12-03T01:53:33.847-08:002009-12-03T01:53:33.847-08:00I'm sorry for your heartbreak and for the loss...I'm sorry for your heartbreak and for the loss of your dream. You haven't done anything or hoped for anything that all other parents haven't hoped for. You haven't let anyone down, YOU were the one who was let down. You just want to me a mom again, there's no shame in that. I hope you can focus on all the good things in your life and find yourself back in your routine, whatever that may be. Peace be with you.Shari Uhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01069658983242566841noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-74443580763912783272009-12-02T17:51:15.622-08:002009-12-02T17:51:15.622-08:00I have read your blog for quite some time now and ...I have read your blog for quite some time now and I am so very sorry for what you have been through. Over the past 3 years, I have had to let several dreams go and I sense that adopting again (and homeschooling) will be another dream I lay to rest soon. It is so hard to understand why God closes doors regarding things that seem like things He would want. These are probably things we won't fully understand on this side of Heaven. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless you and your family!NiHao Nepalhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02024967942995879688noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-7770360126070580612009-12-02T08:01:15.631-08:002009-12-02T08:01:15.631-08:00Beautiful truths...am sitting with wordless weepin...Beautiful truths...am sitting with wordless weeping...tears of identity, humbled pride and yet so gloriously grateful for His awesome Love, Grace, Wisdom,---redeeming...JOY and HOPE<br />for you...<br />My Child, My child () prayers ()Glorious Expressionshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00276322443015717191noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-24370156144165843942009-12-02T07:29:43.371-08:002009-12-02T07:29:43.371-08:00Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. ...Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us. And allowing us to share in your pain and take a little of it of off you and onto us. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, of a son AND a dream. I am so inspired by your faithfulness and pursuit of Jesus and I am trusting Him to be your Joy.Kyliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09843776631152092425noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-63148828635309881622009-12-01T18:20:36.860-08:002009-12-01T18:20:36.860-08:00Thanks for putting it all out there. All of it. I...Thanks for putting it all out there. All of it. I am praying for you all. Your faith and your perseverance to Just keep moving forward is inspiring. We don't get to pick the story God has for us to live, we get to let Him get all the glory as we give it to Him. You are doing that...Lanahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11278515816812016067noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-79526983730044744712009-12-01T17:06:13.655-08:002009-12-01T17:06:13.655-08:00Girl! I can't even imagine what you are feeli...Girl! I can't even imagine what you are feeling--it just breaks my heart for you. But you said it all--you put your own hearts at risk to do exactly what God called you to do for Little Guy...to be a light to him for the time God needed you as an instrument in Little Guy's life. You thought it was a permanent assignment, but God knew it was temporary. And you were willing to put your heart in God's hands to do his work. I am SO thankful for the blessing and witness of God's love that you are! There have been lots of prayers going up from you from the NY direction over the past weeks!JenLohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12335549553791444287noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-65574163067967320932009-12-01T15:45:27.930-08:002009-12-01T15:45:27.930-08:00Thanks for sharing your story. It is painful to re...Thanks for sharing your story. It is painful to read but encouraging to see you cling so tightly to our Lord. That is all we can do. We are human and have these human needs that sometimes pull our hearts apart but HE can mend them, if we let Him. Your family is so special and we pray for you always!!! You are a blessing to so many. Always know that we love you and know that we will keep you in our prayers. Have a wonderful Christ-centered Christmas! I know you will make so many wonderful memories and can't wait to see you share them on here!Terrihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01547279026740589595noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-4524288468490686842009-12-01T14:16:25.672-08:002009-12-01T14:16:25.672-08:00your post breaks my heart and yet your faith and p...your post breaks my heart and yet your faith and perseverance uplifts me all at the same time!! i know you were a BLESSING in the life of little guy and that God will use the time you had with him to bless both your lives and his...in His time. and now i know He will be faithful to move your family forward!! may He bring you BOUNDLESS joy and peace this Christmas season!! love you!! XOXOMeghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10249589899732282194noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-663464361147048902009-12-01T13:44:46.792-08:002009-12-01T13:44:46.792-08:00I am sobbing.....crying for all of you....I will e...I am sobbing.....crying for all of you....I will email you back later....I don't want to put anything here other than I am praying for you and for little guy....for all of you....your faith will get you through....Love you.....Steffie B.https://www.blogger.com/profile/10961855406741293851noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-82451403550869331672009-12-01T04:06:21.534-08:002009-12-01T04:06:21.534-08:00Love you to pieces my Sweet Southern Sister!Love you to pieces my Sweet Southern Sister!Jinglebritcheshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08301955445854747674noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-90351603115276385192009-12-01T02:19:01.275-08:002009-12-01T02:19:01.275-08:00Continuing to keep you in our prayers. I am heartb...Continuing to keep you in our prayers. I am heartbroken for you and your precious family. Your trust in God and the hope that you have, shines through you, you are a wonderful testimony of what it means to be a child of God and are a blessing to many.Much Adohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02034590806354970188noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-39424043842206361392009-12-01T02:17:06.910-08:002009-12-01T02:17:06.910-08:00This comment has been removed by the author.Much Adohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02034590806354970188noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-89963760357473737442009-11-30T22:54:23.351-08:002009-11-30T22:54:23.351-08:00Oh Jana....love you my sweet friend.....you KNOW I...Oh Jana....love you my sweet friend.....you KNOW I lift you and your precious little family up to our wonderful Father every day!! And...I will continue to do just that...because...do you know what??? GOD NEVER FAILS!!!!! Have a most peaceful and JOYFUL Christmas with your perfect little family of three....that's exactly what I'll be doing here in TN....You are a blessing...you are a treasure....You are GOD's daughter! Love you tons and tons sweet friend!Denise Chttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10570605263503042255noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-25147925184806176082009-11-30T22:45:03.769-08:002009-11-30T22:45:03.769-08:00Friend, I am proud of you. You continue to inspire...Friend, I am proud of you. You continue to inspire me. <br /><br />The journey twists and turns, but the Compass remains the same...drawing us towards True North. <br /><br />Keep moving forward is a good mantra. Can I borrow it? :)<br /><br />The promises are the same, but perhaps the meaning is richer after what you've been through..."we know that He works all things together for good..." you know the rest. <br /><br />Not just the good, not only the bad....but together the mixture is a sweet aroma to Him as we lay it all before His feet to be redeemed...just watch and see...it will not be "unredeemed".<br /><br />All my love~Funderstormhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04406559808853286895noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-84580504465989749612009-11-30T20:37:25.845-08:002009-11-30T20:37:25.845-08:00First let me tell you how much of an encouragement...First let me tell you how much of an encouragement you are to me. I know that we were never close friends, but I reflect often on the time that you were in Baytown and your spirit. Your situation parelled mine so much that I feel a strong bond with you. You are so brave to do everything that you have done. We started the process with the state but I just couldn't do it. It didn't feel right to me. I know what you went through to get licensed. To say that you did that is an accomplishment on it's own. As I sat here and read what you went through with Little Guy, my heart was breaking for you. It still breaks for you because I know the pain that you are feeling in not pursuing your family dreams. I feel that heartache every day. Some days are easier to find "JOY" than others. I pray that it gets easier for you to find "JOY".Bonniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15157015875233739248noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-47293905776771950102009-11-30T20:27:53.093-08:002009-11-30T20:27:53.093-08:00J, as I am wiping the tears and hurting so much fo...J, as I am wiping the tears and hurting so much for y'all know that y'all are so loved. What you did with Little Guy was a huge sacrafice and a blessing in his life and yours. Even if he was only in your home for a few days, he will one day remember the unconditional love that you showed him. Remember God will place Little Guy in the "perfect" home. Love all 3 of you bunches!!!!!!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3930974220184517677.post-78370766256577704292009-11-30T20:01:54.588-08:002009-11-30T20:01:54.588-08:00I'm so sorry. I'm just bawling reading th...I'm so sorry. I'm just bawling reading through all your details. Believe me. I poured over every single detail. No ONE should EVER have to go through that. Please know that I'm thinking of you. Please don't stop blogging. EXTRA HUGS!!Musings from Kim K.https://www.blogger.com/profile/09125473702962679391noreply@blogger.com